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My wedding day was the happiest and the most enjoyable day of my life.  The most memorable moment of that day was me walking down the aisle with my dad. You know, most brides are smiling and cheerful, but I was a bucket of water.  From the time I stepped into the Rolls Royce I became overwhelmed with the goodness of God.   The time I spent in the car was truly a worship and praise moment.  Anyway, it was time for me to walk down the aisle. 

I was happy and cheerful on the inside, but on the outside, I couldn’t stop crying.  My dad looks at me like only he can and we began to walk. Crying my eyeballs out there was a point that I realized how slow my dad and I were walking.  I remember trying to speed up and I could gently feel my dad pulling me back. With his action, it was like he was trying to tell me, “slow down Chetoca, savor the moment.”  Teehee, child, I was just ready to get to Michael.

Recently, God gave me the ok to move forward on something that I asked Him about.  Out of the blue, He gave me permission to start a new endeavor.  This new endeavor is something I’ve never done before and I was really nervous about where and how to start. Walking into unknown territory the doubting thoughts were magnified. After weeks of debating what this endeavor would look like, I started.

As time moved on I came into the rhythm of tackling and executing on this new endeavor.  I became so engrossed in this journey that I came up with a few other ideas. All of which I prayed about, but due to my impatience I moved on one of them.

Instead of waiting on God I went ahead of him and man did it cost me financially. Now, I’m sure someone is saying “that’s just the cost of doing business.” I say, nah…I should have waited for God. There is a pattern between the walk down the aisle and God’s permission about a potential endeavor.

Can you guess what it is?  Speed. According to Google, the definition of speed when used as a noun is “the rate at which someone or something is able to move or operate.”  When used as a verb “it means to move quickly.” 

In both scenarios I was given the OK to move. The problem was I outpaced my dad and God. Go forward, let’s declare that our goals are God centered. If not, we risk running in the wrong direction or at the wrong speed (i.e., like I did).  God’s pace may not always agree with our pace, but with God as our focal point we can be sure He will set our pace correctly.

Hebrews 12 1-2 KJV says … “let us run with patience the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith…” You may want to speed up where Jesus wants to slow you down. Walk in a straight line, but He wants you to turn around. Stop and give up altogether, but He is nudging you to keep going.  Whatever pace Jesus sets for you and I, know He will always perfect our faith and lead us to the finish line in his timing.

Ease & Stillness,

Chetoca B.