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I was on Tik Tok, and I came across this post that said, “You weren’t rejected, I hid Your Value from them because they were not assigned to your destiny.” Read that not just one more time, but a few times and let that sink in. Obviously, this isn’t the first time I have read or heard this message. This is the first time that the Holy Spirit gave me a true understanding of this message and showed me examples of how it applied to me.

I was in my previous role for five years.  My plan was to learn all I could within the first two years, set the team up for success, and move on to something else.  Yea, my plan was an epic fail.  At least I thought it was. When I saw that I wasn’t moving as quickly as I would have liked, I made sure to keep my department relevant by developing and implementing new ideas, providing recommendations that could be implemented within the organization, and volunteering as much as I could to assist with any projects. 

My hard work had me feeling used and abused. Truthfully, they only did what I allowed the to do. During that time, I felt like I was only good enough to accomplish whatever task they set before me, but I was never good enough to be promoted to the next level. One day we had a new senior leader lead the organization I was part of.  Over the course of a few weeks the new senior leader and I became acquainted.

We worked together to ensure deadlines were met, team performance was above the goal, and implementation of a new workflow application was implemented. This leader was very familiar with my capabilities.  He announced that he would be posting several jobs as he wanted to realign his organization. I was thinking great this would be my opportunity to apply and receive this long-awaited promotion. 

Little did I know he had several team members that he wanted to fill these roles and I wasn’t one of them.  When the announcement was released I was not one of the chosen applicants. Blood boiling, I immediately requested to meet with him and he obliged. I explained my disappointment in not being considered for the role and wanted some feedback on how to improve.  His response was he remembered a time during the business review where he asked me some questions about my process and he felt like I couldn’t answer them.  He wasn’t confident that I understood “pipeline management”.  I listened and let him explain and I responded with an OK. 

“OK” was implying that I was listening to him and to ensure going forward he knows I understand pipeline management; Well, when I said “OK”, he said well wait you can’t just answer me with an OK.  I need for you to talk to me.; Well, as some folks say “He opened the door and I walked through it”. I responded by saying I find it hard to believe that your takeaway from multiple conversations regarding my department is you don’t believe I understand pipeline management.

Like that is beyond belief told him that remembered the day in question he was referring to; I went as far as to recap the entire conversation from that day with him.; Here’s the kicker I even sent him emails where his direct reports and my peers sent IM’s and emails to me staying how well I did in explaining my pipeline. A few of them even notated that it seems like I get questioned the hardest on the business review calls, but each time I could answer whatever was thrown at me with grace.

Well Guess what happened next?  Nothing. The phone went dead silent. I said hello. Are you there? He said yes, but I think pipeline management is an area of opportunity for you. In my head I’m thinking, did you not just hear me? It felt like someone sucker punched me again; like are you serious? I gave him multiple examples regarding our conversation on pipeline management. These examples weren’t based on my feelings but actual facts about conversations that took place between him and I.

Any who, I knew there was no changing his mind and I knew I really needed to leave this organization. Take if from me, if someone doesn’t know your worth keep shopping until someone does. They are out there. The Holy Spirit spoke to me and said the situation I just explained is what happened to you. Your manager didn’t see your value because I hid it from him. It didn’t matter how much I tried to prove myself and show him I was the right person for the role or how many people told him that I was the better fit.

It was in that moment that the Holy Spirit not only showed me this example, but a few other things that I had experienced where he hid my value from others. It’s funny how we hear and/or have read Ephesian 6:12, but we still get upset with man believing they hold our fate in their hands. Do you know how long I was angry at this situation? At my then boss? All along it was God moving me away from who and what wasn’t part of my assignment and moving me towards where he needed me to be in order to accomplish his will.

Please share an experience where you thought you were rejected, but later learned God was redirecting you.

Ease & Stillness,